So my life is a yawn fest. I woke up this morning with no excitement to do anything! I have been really bored ever since I went to college this year and most of that is due to half my friends leaving but a shitload of it has to do with the fact that im going to MCC.....13th grade. I go to class every other day, walk to class with my friend Chris (the kid i said i was seeing way too much of) and after classes I leave cause i dont talk to anyone else there and nobody is fucking outgoing so what does that mean? It means I have a total of like 3 friends and I resort to talking on a Blog page at 3PM on a monday.
Anyways no that I got the shit out that was on my mind this morning im gonna go back to when I woke up! haha so after I have a bowl of the oh so orgasmic Reese's Puffs, I do even more chores which one of them consisted of cleaning out my fish tank where my amazing Sabastian lives. He's a fish not a crab ok? I named him after the composer, not the fucking crab from the Little Mermaid. lol So as im cleaning this little tank out I'm lookin at him nd he seems all happy and starin at me! So I'm like sweet he's doing well!......Well....I was wrong.
I put Sabastian back into his original tank and he immediately starts dieing. No joke, he was burying himself under a mini I put in there and now he's just floating around! =( He's still alive so as im typing this I keep checking to see if he died! AHHH.
Well for tonight my plans are really iffy. I was planning on chillaxin with Alex Geee in the afternoon at zeh mall but I'm home alone with no effing car to drive there and I feel really bad cause I'm just about positive I cant go. I wont be able to leave my house till about 5:30 and thats gonna be fucking late. Also Marli (my girlfriend) wants me to go to her soccer game in B-town and it starts at 4 so I'm gonna try to go late and see what happens. I just wish it didnt look like I was ditching Alex to see Marli. After the game I might be able to see her and maybe crystal or something but I gotta see the GF cause were the kind of couple that when we see each other a lot were fucking amazing and flawless and we become something most couples would be jealous of,
but when we dont see each other everything blows up somehow and i dont know why. If we dont see each other for a while we get into a fued almost every single day we go without seeing each other. I'm not sure if thats a good thing or a bad thing. I mean I think its adorable that we HAVE to see each other or were not ok but what happens when she leaves the state for college? Does that mean our relationship is gonna spiral into a relationSHIT? If we cant go a week without seeing each other how are we gonna go 6 months or more? To be honest, I dont see it working. Its working now but when she leaves theres not gonna be a chance in the world that were gonna stay together which makes me sad and it also scares me cause i have a phobia of being alone so who could I possibly find after thatll make me as happy or happier? I love her with my whole heart and I wanna be with this girl either for the rest of my life or as long as possible so it hurts to think about finding other girls but I dont wanna just pick some random girl after she leaves. I mean i got standards and likes too! Which girl is gonna fall into place?? I mean I had some flings in the past but I doubt I could try those again and I doubt they'd want me to. I think it'd be a good idea to find someone i havent met yet and try to get to know cause that way theres no weird past that I have to remember or work through. The only problem with that is how am I gonna meet a new girl if MCC is fucking ghetto and annoying. When and if I go to Ringling how would I find a girl there when everyone either lives out of state or out of country!? I dont know. I guess the best thing to do right now is go with the flow and just let the wind take me where it pleases. Thats what Ive been doing for my entire life and for the most part it gave me a great life. It introduced me to a great group of people I knew in freshman year. It brought me to experiences that I either loved or learned from and it made my life more interesting. I think thats all for today but I'm sure there will be stuff to talk about tomorrow. Till then, bye blog.
Anyways no that I got the shit out that was on my mind this morning im gonna go back to when I woke up! haha so after I have a bowl of the oh so orgasmic Reese's Puffs, I do even more chores which one of them consisted of cleaning out my fish tank where my amazing Sabastian lives. He's a fish not a crab ok? I named him after the composer, not the fucking crab from the Little Mermaid. lol So as im cleaning this little tank out I'm lookin at him nd he seems all happy and starin at me! So I'm like sweet he's doing well!......Well....I was wrong.
I put Sabastian back into his original tank and he immediately starts dieing. No joke, he was burying himself under a mini I put in there and now he's just floating around! =( He's still alive so as im typing this I keep checking to see if he died! AHHH.Well for tonight my plans are really iffy. I was planning on chillaxin with Alex Geee in the afternoon at zeh mall but I'm home alone with no effing car to drive there and I feel really bad cause I'm just about positive I cant go. I wont be able to leave my house till about 5:30 and thats gonna be fucking late. Also Marli (my girlfriend) wants me to go to her soccer game in B-town and it starts at 4 so I'm gonna try to go late and see what happens. I just wish it didnt look like I was ditching Alex to see Marli. After the game I might be able to see her and maybe crystal or something but I gotta see the GF cause were the kind of couple that when we see each other a lot were fucking amazing and flawless and we become something most couples would be jealous of,
but when we dont see each other everything blows up somehow and i dont know why. If we dont see each other for a while we get into a fued almost every single day we go without seeing each other. I'm not sure if thats a good thing or a bad thing. I mean I think its adorable that we HAVE to see each other or were not ok but what happens when she leaves the state for college? Does that mean our relationship is gonna spiral into a relationSHIT? If we cant go a week without seeing each other how are we gonna go 6 months or more? To be honest, I dont see it working. Its working now but when she leaves theres not gonna be a chance in the world that were gonna stay together which makes me sad and it also scares me cause i have a phobia of being alone so who could I possibly find after thatll make me as happy or happier? I love her with my whole heart and I wanna be with this girl either for the rest of my life or as long as possible so it hurts to think about finding other girls but I dont wanna just pick some random girl after she leaves. I mean i got standards and likes too! Which girl is gonna fall into place?? I mean I had some flings in the past but I doubt I could try those again and I doubt they'd want me to. I think it'd be a good idea to find someone i havent met yet and try to get to know cause that way theres no weird past that I have to remember or work through. The only problem with that is how am I gonna meet a new girl if MCC is fucking ghetto and annoying. When and if I go to Ringling how would I find a girl there when everyone either lives out of state or out of country!? I dont know. I guess the best thing to do right now is go with the flow and just let the wind take me where it pleases. Thats what Ive been doing for my entire life and for the most part it gave me a great life. It introduced me to a great group of people I knew in freshman year. It brought me to experiences that I either loved or learned from and it made my life more interesting. I think thats all for today but I'm sure there will be stuff to talk about tomorrow. Till then, bye blog.
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